Removed pt. 3

I expected our move would bring new experiences and a fresh start.  I was not anticipating new opportunities for me.  God placed specific people in my life who were "nudgers". People who saw more potential in me than I saw in myself and felt no reservations in giving me little nudges toward what they felt … Continue reading Removed pt. 3

Removed pt2

I felt lost.  God had asked me to step back from everything I was passionate about.  I struggled to see how this fit in to my church and my life.  Saying "no" at every turn was so unlike me and yet, as I withdrew, my focus moved to my family.  My full term baby was … Continue reading Removed pt2

Removed pt.1

"But when she could no longer hide him, she got a papyrus basket for him and coated it with asphalt and pitch. She placed the child in it and set it among the reeds by the bank of the Nile."   Exodus 2:3 Throughout my journey with God, I have felt his yes and no answers.  I say felt because … Continue reading Removed pt.1

Ensnared

Anxiety.  It can be an UGLY word and an UGLY emotion. Anxious: full of mental distress; greatly worried According to WebMD, anxiety is linked to mental disorders, panic attacks, and social disorders. The site also includes symptoms of extreme anxiety include: feelings of panic, fear, uneasiness problems sleeping not able to be still and calm … Continue reading Ensnared

Transitioned

This is the point in my blog, where I need to move beyond the impact of the move on our family, to the funny, quirky, everyday happenings that make me smile, because life goes on (Ob la di ob la da life goes on bra).  It has been 5 months since we moved, which is … Continue reading Transitioned

Captured

It had to be done.  I missed my people.  My kids missed their people.  We had to make a visit to Virginia.  Four kids.  One adult.  15 hour road trip.  Its enough to make you NOT want to attempt it. The day after Christmas, we hopped in the car, fully stocked with snacks, movies, and … Continue reading Captured

Unexpected

"What do you want for Christmas Eve dinner?" I asked my husband while we were sitting in our bedroom. We were watching TV and trying to focus over the relentlessly barking dogs on the other side of our window.  I had focused Christmas Day prep along with packing for our trip to Virginia and had completely … Continue reading Unexpected

Redefined

I wasn't ready. Uprooting and relocating is one thing, but completely redefining how you celebrate the holidays is another.  I didn't know what to expect.  I wasn't grieving, but I wasn't ready to do anything different. I tried to avoid Thanksgiving at home.  At first we attempted a trip to Houston, then a trip to … Continue reading Redefined

Friend-ed

"Mom, will I ever have a friend at school?" She had asked me the question before, but each time was like a kick in the gut.  No answer would suffice.  No response would make everything better.  This girl of mine left several close friends behind in Virginia; girls she has known most of her life. … Continue reading Friend-ed

Immersed

As a child, I loved swimming.  I remember teaching myself to swim and the invigorating feeling of being submerged, racing to the bottom of a pool to retrieve a diving stick or a shiny coin.  I have no memories of being afraid of water.  I have been snorkeling in the Florida Keys, diving below the … Continue reading Immersed